Friday, August 27, 2010

on being messy

Yesterday I read this passage in one of Anne Lamott's books:

"Tidiness suggests that something is as good as it's going to get. What people somehow forgot to mention when we were children was that we need to make messes in order to find out who we are and why we are here."

This makes me feel much, much better about my life.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

A Case of the Grumps

I’m grumpy. The truth is, I’ve been grumpy for at least a week. Probably longer. And it’s not like me to be grumpy that long. If I could guess at the reason, I would say it has something to do with sitting in a window-less, soul-crushing office every day of the summer with an the air conditioner that’s convinced we live in the tropics. And I have a feeling that if I dared to look underneath the growliness, what I would find is an unanticipated disappointment with my current career choice… But this post was meant to try and cheer me up. So: instead of thinking of all the things that make me grumpy, I’m going to think of all the things that make me happy. Here are some of them:

1. The smell of my husband on the bed pillows.
2. Reading a good book until 3am knowing full well I have to be up in a few hours.
3. Finding a particularly good spot in the library, at one of the big wooden tables, near a window.
4. When there is no conceivable way to avoid rain puddles: putting on my rain boots and embracing them instead.
5. Drinking coffee with my grandparents in the mornings.
6. Hugs from my little brother.
7. Knowing that my last day of work is tomorrow.

There. I feel happier.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

a vindication of my late night reading...

Some nights stay up till dawn,
As the moon sometimes does for the sun.
Be a full bucket pulled up the dark way
of a well, then lifted out into the night.


Monday, August 2, 2010

Reader, I married him.

This weekend Joe and I got married. It may have been one of the most beautiful days of my life - something I didn't expect. We said our vows in a field in West Montrose (so says the registry) in the rain. And afterwards we danced the night away with all our loved ones at St. John's Kitchen.

The law is love. -Rumi