Sunday, September 22, 2013

apparently I have a new favourite picture book


From the same publisher of Hildafolk comes this eccentric little book, WILD by Emily Hughes. It is perfect. Seriously. My first day back at the bookstore (which was yesterday) I saw its spine peeking out from one of the shelves and was all: WHAT. IS. THAT. Needless to say it was mine from that moment.

After work I brought it home. It was late. And there was a whole lot of people over at my place (my partner had invited his colleagues over). I read it to each and every person who would let me.

I might be obsessed. Maybe. Just a little.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

On Writing

Before you begin, you’re standing at the bottom of the bluff looking up. The sight both thrills and terrifies you because the question of Is it surmountable? is still unanswered. So you make your first choice: Do you begin? Or do you simply admire it and, when you’re done admiring, walk away?

You don’t walk away. You find the trail, or you make one, and you walk. This particular bluff is steep, which is of course why you picked it. But soon your legs are burning and your breath stings your lungs and you’re nowhere near halfway up. At this point it would be oh so easy to turn back.

Today, though, you push yourself on. It’s hard. Every step is one where you could stop and say enough. You’re tired. Also, what if you have to pee? You’re in the middle of nowhere. More importantly, though, you left the car way back there, a world away, with all your belongings. What if something happens to it while you’re up climbing this silly hill?

But now you are halfway there. And when you take that next step, those worries begin to slip away. The space between you and world grows and you forget why your belongings are so important and who cares about the car, anyway? You know where you want to go and you’re not going to stop until you get there.

As you climb, higher and higher, it’s still hard. Your legs are still burning and your breath is still scraping your lungs... only you’re used to it now. You start to pay attention to where you are. The smells are sweet here and a little bit bitter, like berries and balsam firs and wet, dark earth. The clouds hang low, kissing your face and leaving mist in your hair. The wind hushes and the hawks soar. The higher you climb and the further away you get from the world below, the clearer things become and the more you can see. At the top you find a rock and you sit, looking out over the sea and the hills and the clouds hovering all around you.

And when you’re ready, you start your return. It’s easier going down. Your legs move fast. Your breath comes quick. Everything flows. The thunk-squish-splash of your boots is like the tapping of keys or the scratch of a pen on a page. You ride that flow all the way back to the world and upon your return, you look up and find that same awe-inspiring sight towering above you, except this time the question of Is it surmountable? has been answered.

With a sigh, you close the laptop or you set down your pen. And then you make yourself lunch.


Friday, September 6, 2013

north

In the northernmost part of Newfoundland the wind is so harsh it snatches the breath right out of your lungs and makes the trees grow at vicious angles. Here the sky is brooding and dark one moment and the next it's clearest blue. The landscape is rugged and bleak, cornered by a cobalt sea, and speckled with lichen and berries and moss. It's an old world, full of old magic, and it's making my heart sing.